Today is the 28th May 2009 . Went to school as usual and all the lecturers were talking about if the school closes due to the H1N1 virus we'd get e-learning instead . 

I really don't want anything like that, first e-learning sucks, second, if the closure is long, our 3 week break is burnt, which means to say the school will want us back during the supposed holidays . That sucks even more . But whatever it is, i don't think i have any control or right to say anything . 

Had my results back . 

Happy now ? 

I really don't know how much longer i can or could endure on . . . Many times i really feel like crying, so much so i told myself there's no reason for me to be that weak, i'm strong, always stronger than others, and that always made the tears stop flowing somehow or another . In every way, i'm better than others, i don't have what some people have, but that doesn't mean they have what i have either . Richer, so what, being poor bonds family together . Attached, so what, i am too . Single, so what, you still need time to find your life partner when i already found mine . 

There, another bunch of words i had to lie to myself . 

Yeah, i'm hopeless . So just leave me and forget me .